Finally, something noteworthy to me to break the silence here.
I just realised I am probably someone driven by anger. And I also realised (once again) that the most dependable person is still yourself.
Yes, I do have high expectations, unreasonable expectations maybe, but never impossible. Yes, something happened and that something angered me greatly. But I am glad it happened to wake me up once again to tell me that the world is still spinning no matter how illusionary sturdy and still you are standing – leaving you behind, always leaving you behind, unless you catch up.
No, catching up is not enough, because reality spins and moves faster than the world and the sad status still stays – you are STILL left behind. You need to run, run faster than the competition, plan 10 steps further than your peers, because in this world, money, wealth and power is not only tangible, it’s REAL.
Thus being content is not an option. Dependancy that breeds stillness is not wise. I must run and turn my 24 hours into 48 hours. Since history, many great deeds were driven by anger and hunger. I am angry, but I am moving. Only when the fire is burning can greatness be achieved.
I am not satisfied with a normal life.
Quench my thirst for knowledge. Let’s see how much information can this brain of mine fit.